Memories Of Never

I remember you

Your hands between mine

Cold and warm, firm and fine
Your breath on my skin 
Hot and deep, yours to mine 

I remember your smile against my cheek
Your lips, tongue, tasting mine
Your touch, gentle pain
So rough, so soft, so right 

I remember your skin

Hot and sweet

My tongue laving, teeth scraping
Mouth savouring

I remember your body
Above, around, against, within
My skin burning, throbbing, screaming, needing, desperate

I remember the rush
As the smell of you reached my senses, before my eyes opened to fill with you
Your beauty, singular, mine

I remember waking to your heartbeat 
To your torture
So powerful a high
As never reached before

I remember crashing and rising
Loving and dying 
A moment, forever
Forever a moment

I remember holding your hand 
I remember you
Us
Ever
Though we’ve met
Never

I have loved you and will love you every good day, every bad day and every stupid day
How do I carry these memories of loving you? 
Being loved by you?

And do you remember me too?

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Whoredom

I left, escaped, finally broke free
My own place, my own space,
But he will never let me be
Turn this way
Stand that way
Bend this way 
Oh yeah 
Like that
Just like that
Wiggle it, just a little
Squeeze it just a bit
Softer, harder, tighter, smoother, wetter
Just like that

Not his, but not mine
Freedom with a price tag

A photo, a video, a pose

A piece of me
A piece of meat 
My place, my space
My sanctuary 
My prison with open doors 
I finally broke free
But will I ever be 
Will he ever let me

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Paper Soldier

I’m a paper soldier 
Fighting in the rain
Praying for someone 

To shield me from the pain

Standing all alone

Without a raincoat on

Heart and soul 

Torn and tattered by the storm

We could’ve stood tall 

You could’ve stood by my side

We would’ve been strong

This should’ve been our fight

No matter the wrong 

We would’ve been all right

Now I’m a paper soldier

Standing in the rain

Praying for someone 

To shield me from the pain

Standing all alone 

Without a raincoat on

Heart and soul

Torn and tattered by the storm

 

I thought you understood 

But now I see you can’t 
You’re looking for a reason 
Where there is none 

And now I fight alone 

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I Dream You Real

I see you 

I hear you 

I'll never be near you 

I feel you 

I love you 

I'll never touch you 

How do I know you 

Your touch, taste and smell 

I remember so well 

Before I knew I knew 

Besides we ever meet 

I have loved you 

Should a time come 

That we ever reach 

A place we both will be 

I will give you 

All of me 

For the tomorrows I wish and feel 

For the now's and before's 

I dream you real

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Blue America

I have to walk away from you

All that I knew

Blue America

Old and new America

Me and you America

Blue America

Wishing, waiting, wanting, so much for you

Finding, feeling, fighting, just for the truth

Freedom means so much to you

You know you need it too

Blue America

Who are you America?

Turn around

See me now

Here I am

Blue America

What do you do America?

What is the truth America?

Take up the fight

Of wrong or right

Not black or white

Nor weak or might

Blue America

Who are you America?

What do you stand for?

What will you fall for?

What do you fight for?

What will you die for?

Blue America

Who are you America?

Freedom for all

Means all to be free

Free to be different

Or just the same

Free to hold on to the past 

Freedom to change

Free America

You and me America

Blue America

Who are you America?

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I’m Going To Be An Angel

I’m going to be an Angel 

I’m going to touch the Sky 

I’m going to ride on Rainbows 

 I’m going to have great big Wings
I’m going to Fly 

 I’m going to be an Angel 

I’m going to dance across the Stars 

I’m going to race with Fairies 

 I’m going to have a big blue Unicorn 

I’m going to be the brightest Spark 

 I’m going to be an Angel 

 I’m going to sleep on Clouds 

I’m going to sing with Fantails 

I’m going Run 

 And jump and Shout 

I’m going to be an Angel 

I’ll be a Feather floating by 

I’m going to Whisper softly 

So only you can Hear 

I Love you More than Life 

 I’m going to be an Angel 

 I won’t be Sick again 

You won’t have to Worry 

No more hospital or Medicine 

No more Pain 

I’m going to be an Angel 

 I know you will be Sad 

I won’t really be Leaving you 

I’ll just be Letting go 

Of all the bad 

 I’m going to be an Angel 

 Hold me close and Kiss my face 

Let me lay against your Heart 

Feel the Peace 

Let me fall Asleep
 In your perfect loving Embrace 

 I’m going to be an Angel 

 Don’t forget me as time Goes 

Tell of the Silly things
I said and Did 

Believe that I will Know 

 I’m going to be an Angel 

 This is my Truth 

I was made to love You 

I was and always will be 

Your Angel First

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Hear My Voice

Hear my voice

Hear my words

Open your ears

To the truth of the world

I ask for peace

I ask for love

I ask for hope

And dreams of life

My tears wash the earth

My blood runs free

My hopes die slow

My dreams so brief

Hear my voice

Hear my words

Open your ears 

To the truth of the world

Cease your cries

Your screams in vain

Lay down your arms

End this pain

No more war

No more death or loss

No more anger and hate

The fighting must stop

Hear my voice

Hear my words

Open your ears 

To the truth of the world

We fight for causes

That mean naught

We die for reasons

Lost battles fought

We need no more guns

Bombs and blood

What we need now

Is more peace and love

Listen to my voice

Listen to my words

Open your hearts 

To the truth of this world

We were born innocent

We knew no hate

We grew twisted

Is this our eternal fate

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Higher Daddy Higher

Higher daddy higher

Lift me up

Make fly

Higher daddy higher

Look daddy 

I can touch the sky

See me daddy

Up so high

Higher daddy higher

Lift me up

Up up up daddy

Higher daddy higher

Her cry is joy

Pure delight and love

Her laughter clear

Reaching heavens ears 

Higher daddy higher

Look at me daddy

I can fly

I'm a bird of paradise

Flying through the sky

Magic in her eyes

Her hands and fingers touch forever

Life immortal

Time immemorial

Higher daddy higher

She loves so fierce

Her trust unconditional

Her heart is open

Her dreams so real

Higher daddy higher

Watch her run

Jump, fly

Reach her hands out

And touch forever

Higher daddy higher

The moment eternal

The memory so clear

I close my eyes and see her

Hear her calling down

Higher daddy higher

Higher daddy higher

Lift me up

Make me fly

Higher daddy higher

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The Lost Boy

A beautiful day

A sunlight so bright

A dream in flight

A child in pain

A little wish

A small hope

A lost love

A time to mourn

More than life

More than death

More than hope

More than dreams

More than ever before

A child in pain

Giving all he had

Giving all he could

Giving all he dreamed

Giving all he wished

Giving all away

A child in pain

When he walked

He walked alone

When he cried

He cried alone

When he dreamed

He dreamed alone 

When he screamed

He screamed alone

Who was he to ask for help

Who was he to dream of love

Who was he to give his life

A child in pain

A beautiful day

Sunlight so bright

A dream in flight

A child without pain

A little wish

A small hope

A lost love

A time to mourn

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Flying Free

When the heart no longer jumps at your sight
When the eyes no longer tear at the childs' cry
When the hands no longer ache to hold
When the will no longer strives to be bold
When the mind no longer yearns to dream
When the soul no longer warms within
When the light no longer shines so bright
When the music no longer sings with life
When the life no longer holds so tight
I let go to take my solitary flight

Tell a joke of my fool self

Share a drink off the top shelf

Be sad for a moment

But remember me kind

Shed a tear or two

But do not drown

I am no longer in pain

No longer alone

My flight has finally 

Taken me home

For all those who have lost someone, by choice or not. Be angry a moment that you have lost them but be grateful eternally that you had them. J.

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Song For Son

Love is not just a word
Life is more than you heard
Truth is only what you know
Faith is not just what you show
Hope is the deepest part
The beauty of the faithful heart

It doesn’t burst upon the soul
The heart, the mind
They just know
It lives and grows and is
With strength and depth and breadth and all
It holds against the strongest pull

It’s not a flash, a crash of oh!
It’s just there
You just know
It’s not a sudden waking up
It just is
Love

I didn’t ask for it
I didn’t hope for it
I didn’t even know it was
Until I knew
It always was
And always is

I look at him, it’s there
I never understood
I could live with such fear
Within the fear is trust
And the knowledge that I can
And will always feel this love

Hopes, dreams, wishes, wants
Nothing without him
Work, fight, walk, run
To give all I am for him
Lift, push, hold, let go
All for him
My son.

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Bad Choice

She's gonna be a bad girl
With a choice
Better than a good girl
With no voice
She's gonna be a bad girl
With a choice
And she'll choose
Who'll abuse her
Again and again and again

She's gonna give up her soul
To the night
Better than trying and crying
And losing the fight

She's gonna be a bad girl
Creating her own dark world
She's gonna take the pain
She's gonna wear the blame
Like a badge of honour she's earned

She's gonna live it like she sees it
Believing her own lies
The fault is hers
Better than she had no choice
No voice, no right to deny
She believes she's free
How can she be
When she keeps him locked inside

She's gonna be a bad girl
With a choice
Better than a victim
With no voice
She's gonna be a bad girl
With a choice
And she'll choose
Who'll abuse her
Again and again and again

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